# Nutria on Silk's airship near-suicide *The Urth list — 1 messages, 1 voices, 09 Sep 2002* > Exported from an unofficial mirror of a public mailing list. Copyright > in each message remains with the person who wrote it. > Email addresses are obscured as `user at host`, the form the original > archive published. This file was rebuilt from parsed fields rather than > retained headers, so it is faithful in content but not byte-exact. --- ### Michael Andre-Driussi *09 Sep 2002, 16:41* >>> Nutria quoted a few and wrote: >>> Or do you say Silk tried to kill himself because >>> someone helped Hy overpower the pilot? >> Not because someone helped her, but because she lied to Silk about what >> really happened. He was sad about being lied to. > It's been a long time, but I thought it was because Hy had been unfaithful > to him. I agree with Nutria. I would also add that, aside from the act of cheating, Hy showed evidence of not loving Silk the way that Silk loved her; furthermore, Silk was wondering if he really loved Hy at all, or the goddess that was riding her. (That goddess, btw, is what I think is the presence that means Hy is not acting "alone" in dealing with the pilot, or dealing with Silk either.) Putting this together, Silk suddenly had all his happiness torn away from him and was shown a version of reality where he was a mere puppet of a goddess who really didn't give a fig for him (or, at a more mundane level, a lesbo-spy from the enemy state was using him). The world was a lie, his life was a lie, his job as calde' was a lie, and his thoughts turned to self-slaughter. =mantis= ---